Personal log, Saru

The Personal log of Saru were series of entries made by Saru during his time in Starfleet.

History

In 2257, Saru was undergoing vahar'ai and believed he was dying. He asked Commander Michael Burnham to catalog his log to ensure that his species would no longer fall under General order 1. (DSC episode: "An Obol for Charon")

Entries

3189

Personal log, supplemental.

I remain in... awe. It is the only word I can find for this feeling, and yet I know it is insufficient.
When I saw Dr. Issa, I saw myself. I saw home. The turns of this life will never cease to surprise me. Who would have imagined that I, Saru of Kaminar, could have journeyed so far?
And now I discover that there are others, like me, who made a similar journey.
I believe it is our duty to find their vessel and learn what happened to them. We must bring their story back to Kaminar, to the Federation. Whether or not that will help us solve The Burn, I do not know. But I feel certain that we owe it to them to try...

Personal log, supplemental.

My final Starfleet log, for now.
I have relinquished command of Discovery so that I may accompany Su'Kal to Kaminar. A difficult decision, to be sure, but I have no doubt it is the right one.
Adjusting to life outside the nebula will not be easy for him, especially as the repercussions of the the Burn become clear. I will help him acclimate into Kaminar society, ensure he feels safe and cared for, however long that takes, and I know I leave Discovery in excellent hands.
Michael is more than a capable officer, she is a dear friend. I have no doubt she will exceed all expectations as captain. I cannot deny that I am quite eager to rediscover my home world... and I am also comforted knowing that when I am ready to return to the stars, Discovery will be there.
Until then...

Personal log, stardate 865468.5

Although I remain on leave from Starfleet, I have resolved to continue keeping regular logs like this one. There is comfort in routine.
I find that each day here on Kaminar brings new insight, both for myself and for Su'Kal. He was invited to participate in his first game of dice this evening and although he lost spectacularly, it fills me with such joy to see him included. Our larger community is at last making efforts to welcome him despite the misgivings I know some continue to harbor.
In time I'm confident Kaminar will be a wonderful home for him. It is for me as well.
Though of course I cannot help but think of Discovery and the question that is never far from my mind. When will I return?

3190

Captain's personal log, supplemental.

Today I experienced quite an odd interaction with our guest Mr. Tarka. I suppose it would be best described as a... shouting match. Afterwards he asked if it provided me with some measure of relief, and I must admit that it did.
Of late there has been so much on my mind between the DMA, and my duties on Discovery, and the Kaminar High Council. The truth is, I have had little time for rest or release. Being forced to let go today, even for a moment, was unexpectedly freeing.
In fact, I am almost tempted to try it again right now. But... I will refrain. The halaplant is particularly sensitive to sound vibrations, and it does look rather pitiful when its leaves drop off.
Still... I am tempted...

Captain Saru, personal log.

Quite personal, in fact. Perhaps I should... well, I suppose I have already begun...
I have been considering an interaction with President T'Rina, wherein she seem to express a desire for greater connection with me.
It was merely a suggestion of future shared meal, but still... In the moment, I admit I was rather flummoxed.
The President is an individual of great depth and insight, and when we converse I find that time istelf seem to drift from its usual steady flow.
But we are dealing with such uncertainty, I could not...
Well, I have spent more than enough time on this. I should make my usual rounds, check on the crew.
Perhaps I will start with Dr. Culber.
Yes, I will start with Dr. Culber...

Appendices

External link

• Personal log, Saru article at Memory Alpha, the wiki for canon Star Trek.